should i be?

Do I still need to explain myself? Do I still need to answer the questions which are bothering many people, friends and even those who really don't and would never care?

Mmmmm. "...those who really don't and would never care...", it bothers me.  I hate to talk about this issue in a blog but I can't find any other person who is mature and patient enough to understand what I truly feel.

I've been urging myself to stop lingering on this problem for I know, from the very start, it won't do me any good but still, I decided to pursue it.  It's the natural instincts fault: I see something attractive, knowing in the first place it'll be a burden to think more about it, then I fell for its trap and eventually, I now see myself stuck in this whole thing.  

And now, I realized, it is really a burden, a big problem.  I want to escape but I couldn't because passing through those prison rails embedded with thorns would leave me crying in pain and the hell I wouldn't want to do that.

There's only one thing that I could do and that is to sort all the keys presented right before me.  Sorting out and finding the real key to that lock will be the only thing that could rescue me from this agony but the lock is found outside of the cell!  This means, I still have to slip my arms through the prison bars in order to try out a key.  Then this would result to the torturing of my forearms which will eventually end up bruised and bleeding.

But I don't care.  After several bruise-and-bleeding sessions with the thorns, in the end, my hand would  be numb, not feeling if the thorns would still hurt.  And in the end, I'll be free and the hurt will also disappear.

So, could anyone help me find the right key? Would anyone care to find the solution to my problem?  If then, the problem is: 

Shucks. HELP!