insecurities

Just so to let everyone know, I have quit my job (just for a month or two) to give time for myself MORE. It seemed that I realized that I really couldn't manage every event that has been happening to me lately. I found out that I couldn't put my acads, cheerdance, job and everything else in between together. I know, I am not a superwoman and right now, I have no plans of becoming one. So I have come to decide to eliminate my job and give more time to SLEEP, the only comfort that I could ever want.


But recently, I have been very afraid of sleeping. A couple of my dreams were unpleasant. There was one that I jumped off from the roof of our house and never got the jitter to wake up while falling but I continued falling until I felt my whole body, face down, hitting the ground. GAWD! That was a near death experience!!! What if my subconscious decided to die? Will my conscious mind take an effort to revive me from that subconscious idea? Anyway, I woke up, but I was really shivering at that moment. Seriously. Maybe that dream explains why.

Anyway, life must go on and I must get more sleep. So yeah, I slept soundly for the past few days. I slept soundly even if bad news gotten in my way. I slept soundly even if I have to face that bad news to make me sleep. Nevertheless, I was able to sleep. Then I realized, that it wasn't really a bad news after all. It could have been a bad news before, but now, NOT ANYMORE.

Seriously, I could only be mad tonight. I will sleep in a few minutes, but tomorrow, I would already forget about it, including you. It was nice knowing you. Seriously, it was nice knowing you.