just 10

4.25.2009 @ 12:12 AM♥

I have been haunted by things that I thought wouldn't haunt me for a moment!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!

FOR THIS TIME ONLY, I WANT TO POUND MY KEYBOARD!!! Pero di pwede, masisira ang laptop T_T Okay sana kung PC ka, pero HINDI!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!

(I just threw both of my cellphones on the other side of the bed! I can't throw it on the floor, baka masira T_T ).

Okay, before I start ranting again, I'd bring you 10 little somethings that concerns me on this thing they call LOVE.

1. I can sleep even if I am broken-hearted and no, I don't cry myself to sleep. I just sleep. I hate thinking about the bad things that happen in my love life. It's bad and thinking more about it just makes it really worse.

2. I can do my lab reports, thesis, etc. even if I am broken-hearted. I am more motivated when I am clouded with the feeling (unlike others who become more and more messy as the feeling overcomes them). I do better in class and I get good grades. I think it's because I would want my mind to be clouded by non-love related things to make me feel better.

3. I don't like listening to other people's lovelife's misery because first of all, it's not my business to be part of your messy life and second, I don't want your bad vibes to hover me for a moment. It might stay there forever and that would really suck.

4. I hate implied messages. If you love me, then tell me and show it. If you only want to treat me as your friend, then say that straight to my face. I don't want to end up looking stupid. I've had enough humiliation already.

5. I hate telling my heartaches to anybody. It's either I cry it out or I pray. These are the only things that can make me feel better. I don't find the words of a friend comforting because sometimes it just makes things worse than before.

6. I highly discourage courtships coz it only shows the "good side" of the guy. If I would love a person, I would want to know the two sides of him. At least I won't regret something in the future.

7. I am a sucker for chocolates and letters. You just don't know how happy I become if you give me one. Don't give me flowers, I would just throw it away in a garbage bin on the way home.

8. If you promise something to me, please do fulfill it. I would really expect something if you say the words "I promise". But if you broke your promise, I'd really be upset and perhaps won't be talking to you for the next few weeks and I literally mean, WEEKS.

9. You'll know if I'm heartbroken if I don't smile often. Yes, I can still smile and laugh even if I am tired and sleepy but it's hard for me to smile if I'm heartbroken. And oh, I would also lay-off to songs when I am heartbroken. Sometimes the lyrics are just too direct to the point.

10. Lastly, if I'm heartbroken, I could spend a day or two playing the PS2, I wouldn't turn on my laptop nor the TV. Only the PS2.

Freud must really re-instate his theory:

Cameron: According to Freud, and I’m paraphrasing, instinct of love toward an object demands a mastery to obtain it, and if a person feels they can’t control the object or feel threatened by it, they act negatively toward it. Like an eighth-grade boy punching a girl.

House: I treat you like garbage, so I must really like you. Given your Freudian theory, what does it mean if I start being nice to you?

Cameron: That you’re getting in touch with your feelings.

and the reason why I threw my phone? I don't know. But I feel very bad at this moment T_T. And no, I won't cry myself to sleep. I hope.

just 10

4.25.2009 @ 12:12 AM♥

4.25.2009 @ 12:12 AM♥