...ouch T_T

For the past few days, things didn't work well the way that I expected them to be. I guess you must always really be very ready for surprises to come along, they truly are highly unexpected. And in just a snap of a finger, my perspective of life suddenly changed drastically.

While I was contemplating one night (kasi nawala ang connection sa net), I realized that there are a lot of things in life that I have overlooked. I found out that beyond the good things infront of me, there are things that are far more better. These things are waiting to be explored so yeah, I'm quite excited to do those.

For the past few months, I've become a more reserved and conservative person. I forgot that I had the skill to mingle with people outside my circle. And when the moment came to remind me that I still have that certain "charisma", I almost forgot about it but good thing I was still able to catch up and proved myself that I still got it.

For those who didn't know, last April 27-30, I attended this Eco-Conservation Fair hosted at SM Event Centre and Cha appointed me as the head of the Documentary Committee. After almost four years, I was able to say again na "wait lang, busy ako, mag-cocover pa ako ng event". Gosh. Shield days. It was really awesome! At first, I was hesitant to go near the stage and take pictures but I told myself that I have the right to do so thus I must not be shy. Haha. Anyway, who cares? Even if we weren't paid for that, it's the experience that counts the most :D

Lastly, I have been feeling really upset for the past few days. And when I finally decided to let my feelings out (by crying while taking a long, warm shower one night), I realized that it hurts less if you decide under the reasons that it'll be better for more than one person even if it'll not include yourself. That it was good that you could think first for the benefit for other persons than thinking of your personal gain. Even if I get really depressed or sad, what would matter is that you made more than one person happy and that what you did was good.

My character has been tested a lot of times and my faith as well. But even though I'd think that God might have given up on me and decided to teach me a lesson, I'd always end up thinking that it's just a test that I must get through. And I have always believed in the idea that God doesn't gives us challenges that we cannot endure. At least, after everything, I'd become a better person than I was before.