never better =)

5.27.2009 @ 9:15 PM♥

This has been the best week of my summer vacation by far :) In the first place, may summer ba talaga ako? Haha. For the past few weeks I have been very busy with a lot of things especially ang aking pinakamamahal na THESIS!  Quick update: today, I went to school to check if all of my reagents for the DNA Extraction are present in significant amounts in the lab and yes, they were all there! YEAH! I will have a quick talk with Sir Toto again tomorro and I might start with the lab works on TUESDAY. Weeeee. I'm very excited na =)

For two consecutive days, I couldn't stop but smile most of the time :D Why???
1. I watched Angels & Demons with Shield. aw, anjan pala si Hoby, so uhm, Shield + representative from Blue Knight. Hehe. Then dinner at Penong's afterwards :)
2. I saw PAOLO S. before and after we watched the movie! And I got a HUGGGG from him. Awwwww. Pao: "It has been how long na ba?" July: "Ewan, 2 years? 3?" Waaaaa. I soooo did miss him very much! At na-miss ko na naman siya ulit ngaun. aw. :(
3. I got another "hug" from Kevin G. this time! Haha. You should have seen his face on how happy he was to see me. Weeeeee!
4. I saw MORE SCHOOLMATES (still at NCCC Mall's TimeZone area) pero I didn't get any other hugs na baka kasi OA na.haha:P
5. Gwapo iyong guy named "MOBIE" na nag-turo ng hiphop sa akin last Tuesday. Waaaahahaha. Igat much July? Haha.

"We were destined to become friends.  You on the other hand have to work your way in.  And I don't care if you get to see him half-naked everyday coz I know that someday, I'd be the one he chooses to show himself fully NAKED."
--YAKS! dili man nako to siya crush oi. Haha:P

I know this app in facebook... I have one too in my profile.  Though I really never said these words, it's all TRUE. Haha.

di ko man kelangan ng ganyan sa buhay ko oi pero bat hinahanap ko man???


5.16.2009 @ 10:11 PM♥

Two more sleeps and I'm off.  Every time I think about it, I still get those jitters.  Going to place that I'd be going to for the first time ALONE really creeps me out.  I haven't travelled outside of Davao via the public bus, it would always be by a private car.  The only time I was able to ride a public bus that goes beyond Davao was the time when our van got broken at Tagum City thus we had to get on a bus that goes back to Davao so it was easy lang kasi very near lang naman ang Davao and Tagum eh.

Anyway, this time was different.  XET! “Ilang bus stops iyan?” was the first thing I asked myself. Haha. Guys, wish me luck! Haha.

Sa eco-fair last April 27, 2009:

July: Nag-lunch ka na?
Fino: Oo. Before ako umalis ng bahay. Actually, na-una na lang gani ako dito kasi malapit lang man ang bahay naming, dba?
July: Ay oo, tama.
Fino: Ikaw? Nag-lunch ka na?
July: Wala pa.
Fino: Bkt? Mag-lunch ka na ui.
July: Di pa man ako gutom at isa pa, di ko feel ang food.  Magbili na lang ako ng chocolates.
Fino: Tsk tsk. Atenista jud ka.
July: Ngano man?
Fino: Ang arte mo pa rin.
July: Oi pang maintain ng energy level ung chocolates ui.  Di ko lang talaga feel magkain ng rice.
Fino: Sus! Paatik ka pa.

*minutes later*

Fino: Oh, kumakain ka man lagi?
July: Oo na. Pinakain ako ni Ate Jezza at kinulit pa nila Marlon.  Juice lang man iyong ginahingi ko bah.  Lunch man gud ang nakalagay sa stub.

And Fino pahabol: Gusto ko talaga iyong bag ni Web. Haha. Kung ayaw na niya, pakisabi na akin na lang. Thanks :D

Back to reality: Maka-depress ang aking bed.  Why?

kawawang spongebob :(

Tsss. I’ll blog again when I’m back in Davao and that’s gonna be in 4 or 5 days pa. T_T


5.13.2009 @ 9:26 PM♥

One thing I realized about myself is that I learn best from my mistakes. So yeah, experience is the best mentor for me and I will keep learning from it even though a lot would say I shouldn't.

(hala! picture2x while driving?! uh-NO! joke lang:P naka-parking lng ako niyan. haha. bored!)

So, for the past few days, I have been trained to drive. :D :D :D :D :D :D And without being ALMOST bumped into another car (or I think it was two) in a crossroad, I would never realized that I should always look both ways before I cross it. When the car infront of me suddenly stopped, I realized that there was a traffic light na pala. I thought the whole time I was just driving inside the subdivision.

But of course, there are still things that I can't maneuver well. I still can't do a U-turn without using the reverse gear (patay ako nito sa highway!). And I don't know when to use my horn. :P But at least I could get through the traffic already (talk about JP Laurel, Ponciano, San Pedro St. and McArthur Highway).



three words

5.09.2009 @ 7:17 PM♥

A day after I had a consultation with Ma'am Ching for my thesis experimental part, I took out my handy dandy calendar/planner to mark out all the dates that I might not be available for social activities.  After 10 minutes of thinking and remembering, this is what happened to my calendar:

May 2009

June 2009

Summer pa ba? Haha. I don't know when would be the next time I'd get more than 8 hours of sleep because of this.  Wala pa nag-start ang school year, Zombie na naman itsura ko. Haha.  I wish very good luck for my self. Tsk tsk. I guess Tita Carol was right.  Last year, as we were having a conversation over dinner, she told me, "you're planning to go to med school dba? if that's the case then you should enjoy your life while you're not still there kasi mag-todo2x study ka na niyan."  Waaaa. Wala pa nga ako dun, busy na ako masyado. Tsk tsk.

Haiii.  As I was watching Grey's Anatomy (Season 5) yesterday, I found these words very interesting:

Owen: Nice work today.
Cristina: Nice work today! Seriously?
Owen: I'm sorry?
Cristina: Run to my truck. You got O'malley clipping bleeders, and you're telling me to run to your truck.
Owen: You know what my truck looks like. O'malley doesn't. But, that... that run you took saved the guys life.
Cristina: Yeah, well all day, all day you were teaching O'Malley and you ignored me.
Owen: O'Malley wants to be a trauma surgeon. You've already declared cardio. I didn't do anything wrong today. I treated you like I would anyone else.
Cristina: (pushes him) I am not like anyone else. Take care now? What is that? What are you like, you're not happy now? What... what are you? You know, just a choke 'em and forget 'em kind of guy?
Owen: (pulls out a piece of paper and hands it to Cristina)
Cristina: Hey there now. Take care now. Nice work Yang. What is this?
Owen: It's my shrink. My shrink gave me these sentences. We ah, we came up with them together. They're all 3 word sentences. So I could have something to say to you instead of the 3 words that are... that are killing me. The 3 words that you know I feel but I can't say them, because it would be cruel to say them, because I am no good for you. I don't wanna torture you. I don't wanna look at you longingly when I know I can't be with you. So, yeah I'm smiling, and I'm saying take care now. I'm letting you off the hook. I'm trying, I'm trying so hard to let you off the hook. I'm trying to make it right. What I did to you. Can't you see that? I'm just trying to make it right.
Cristina: (gives the paper back) Take care now. 

haiii. BOOGSH! Ouch. T_T


5.07.2009 @ 12:14 AM♥

Some things are meant to end even though it never really started :(


5.04.2009 @ 6:18 PM♥

I've read and watched the two scenes (unang eksena and ikalawang eksena) from Njel de Mesa's play entitled subTEXT and in these two scenes, it basically tells us about how text messaging plays a role in our daily lives as a so-called "important" bridge to people who are in a way, connected to us.

I admit.  I used to be an avid fan of texting.  Way back in High School, I'd usually top up my number with the 25-peso load (I used to be a TM subscriber then) and then register it for a 24-hour unlimited texting with Globe and TM subscribers.  I also had some of my romantic stories thru texting.  I even had a boyfriend through text and eventually broke up with him also through text.

Upon entering college, I stopped this kind of habit for the reasons one, I don't need to text anyone because most of my blocmates lived in the same building as mine and second, it was hard to find a signal within the EBL Hall.  And after this, I'd only load my phone if I really needed to and the text messages that I sent to my close friends, it's because I have something left to text for you guys. Haha!

So, in conclusion, I don't like texting too much, more likely I'd like calls (kaya ako may Sun).  But if I get really bored, I'd text (using my Sun number only).  I don't feel like wasting money for my Smart Load.

Anyway, in relation with the play that Njel de Mesa wrote (and take note: it was an award-winning play by the Palanca's), I realized that there is no better way to communicate with friends than personally being there for him/her.  

By sending a "T_T" to a friend, he/she couldn't really feel the agony he/she is feeling at the moment and a *hug* won't make him/her feel really better.  It could only tell him/her that at some point, you cared.   What's worse is when you are in your darkest moment then wala palang load ung friend mo!  It may come to a point that he/she may do drastic things (e.g.  killing himself/oneself).

As for romance in text, I think it's a really big illusion to be in that situation.   It's hard to tell if the person on the other line is lying or not. 

- Njel de Mesa

troo FRENZ

5.03.2009 @ 12:50 PM♥

A lot of people had been inviting me to watch Wolverine but it seems that all of them got their timings all wrong. Haha. :P I was always busy and something would always come up thus I could no longer go with them. Anyway, last Friday afternoon, I found out that [insert her name here] watched Wolverine all by herself and this made me really jealous. I really wanted to try watch a movie all alone (I think it's a lot better that way haha). So I told Mon about this little plan of mine:

mon: kelan ka man manood?
july: sa tuesday siguro.
mon: sige, samahan ka namin (inc. sarcastic face)
july: :|

Grabe! True friends jud mo! Lang kwenta! Haha. JOKE :D Anyway, it made me laugh a bit because usually, we would always find someone who could acompany us in watching a movie in the cinemas. However, this time, I was trying to get rid of people (e.g. MON) to come with me. And yeah, I still have plans! haha. But I wouldn't tell when so that no one would be coming with me :P

"GLOBAL WARMING MAKES ME HOT" <-- T-shirt ng some NOT HOT guy whom I saw sa SM last Tuesday.

OO, kasi mainit na ang world, we (family and some relatives) decided to have a night swim sa pool ng mergrande. Haha.
Since gabi naman, I decided to drop the sarong the girls usually use to cover their swimsuits (sige na gud, gabi man.haha). And I know they wouldn't really mind because people usually would like to stare more on my henna tattoo than my legs (haha.ooooops!).

kahiya talaga!

5.01.2009 @ 10:55 PM♥

OMG! For the first time in many months, na-feel ko ulit ang feeling ng kahihiyan, FOR REAL. As in iyong makawala ng dignidad! XET! SUPER! As in na-feel ko ung pag-rush ng lahat ng blood sa aking face. Hindi ko matingnan-tingnan iyong tao while I was doing it. I was looking everywhere hoping that no one's looking at us. For the sake of Pizza and friendship, gagawin ko pala talaga lahat? Shucks! Kahiya talaga!

I know I've been doing those challenge things that my friends would dare me to do like "sige nga, gawin mo nga iyon then I'll give you [insert the prize here]". I could always do that. I swear! But this time, it was really different. It was like asking for the number of your crush infront of his friends. Diba super kahiya iyon?! Waaaaaaa! But in my case, it was the other way around. Hindi niya hiningi number ko (how I wish! haha. ay, di ko man pala iyon crush, crush siya ng friend ko.haha) but I have to give him a number!

me: dba globe ka man?
him: oo, bkt?
me: favor beh, paki-text ito na number beh.
him: la man ako load ngayon.
me: kng magka-load ka lang gud.
him: sige, pero bakit pala?
*further exchange of words are too sensitive to be posted here, kaya soreeeee*

Oh dba? Kamsta naman iyon!? haha. As in the next day, wala talaga akong mukhang maihaharap sa kanya. Haha. I wasn't even trying to look at him eye-to-eye. Di ko alam kng pano mag-react. Pero from time-to-time mag-meet pa rin eyes namin. Suya talaga.

Pero ang lakas pa rin ng loob ko, nung paalis na ako, "ui, ung text ha?" buti naman at natawa lang siya. Hehe. At dun ko lang siya kinausap the whole day. Ahehehe. And after this, I realized na di pala tlaga ako pede magsali sa org na may mga "challenge2x" mode. haha. I might faint even before I could do my challenge. Toinkz!

...ouch T_T

10:09 PM♥

For the past few days, things didn't work well the way that I expected them to be. I guess you must always really be very ready for surprises to come along, they truly are highly unexpected. And in just a snap of a finger, my perspective of life suddenly changed drastically.

While I was contemplating one night (kasi nawala ang connection sa net), I realized that there are a lot of things in life that I have overlooked. I found out that beyond the good things infront of me, there are things that are far more better. These things are waiting to be explored so yeah, I'm quite excited to do those.

For the past few months, I've become a more reserved and conservative person. I forgot that I had the skill to mingle with people outside my circle. And when the moment came to remind me that I still have that certain "charisma", I almost forgot about it but good thing I was still able to catch up and proved myself that I still got it.

For those who didn't know, last April 27-30, I attended this Eco-Conservation Fair hosted at SM Event Centre and Cha appointed me as the head of the Documentary Committee. After almost four years, I was able to say again na "wait lang, busy ako, mag-cocover pa ako ng event". Gosh. Shield days. It was really awesome! At first, I was hesitant to go near the stage and take pictures but I told myself that I have the right to do so thus I must not be shy. Haha. Anyway, who cares? Even if we weren't paid for that, it's the experience that counts the most :D

Lastly, I have been feeling really upset for the past few days. And when I finally decided to let my feelings out (by crying while taking a long, warm shower one night), I realized that it hurts less if you decide under the reasons that it'll be better for more than one person even if it'll not include yourself. That it was good that you could think first for the benefit for other persons than thinking of your personal gain. Even if I get really depressed or sad, what would matter is that you made more than one person happy and that what you did was good.

My character has been tested a lot of times and my faith as well. But even though I'd think that God might have given up on me and decided to teach me a lesson, I'd always end up thinking that it's just a test that I must get through. And I have always believed in the idea that God doesn't gives us challenges that we cannot endure. At least, after everything, I'd become a better person than I was before.
July C.
UP Biology Student
soon to be a doctor
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